Today is New Year's Day!

I am off work, and enjoying my kids for a change! And a nice change it is, as my job scheduled my to work over christmas, after I asked not to be scheduled because I worked last year. But again this place does not listen. They cater to their PRN / Seasonal staff before they do anything for their core staff. I suffered such depression over the Christmas week because of it. So, today, January 1st, I am Happy and looking forward to a promising new year! There is much adventure out there for me. I just have to hunt it down.

  I am very positive when I am away from that job of mine, however, once I am on the drive there I suffer great anxiety and depression. This is not a good thing for a nurse, an ER nurse especially. I do realize I need to make changes in my job situation, so the first part of this year is exactly what I will be doing - making changes!

  I am a seasoned ER nurse and a seasoned nurse - period. I love being a nurse and I love helping people, in my job and in my life. However, when you are beaten down with every turn at your job, that begins to suffer and soon, other parts of your life start to suffer. I will not let it destroy me and I will not give up. I am better than they are. I am a valuable RN and I know there is someone out there in need of me - dedicated, hard working and experienced. However, I am also a single Mom and sole supporter for my 2 children, so I must move wisely and make good choices. I know that I will be making choices in the coming year that will disrupt my family, and yet, changes always seem to work out for the best and enhance what we have.

  I have started my year off on the positive note and hope to continue that into the weeks that will fall upon me.

  I am not a resolution type of person, although they sound like good ideas, I find it a better idea to be positive and make better choices.  And even though this job I hold now is not a positive flow in my life, I will continue to be thankful to have a job. I believe there is more out there for me and I believe there are so many better things about to happen in my life this year that I can't help but smile and pray for a Wonderful New Year - 2010!

  A New Year, with many new bright Promises!

  Happy New Year to All!

I suppose I had a bad night, last night at work. I feel so unappreciated, and not just by the Pt's, but by my peers.

I am a strong person, and strong willed and am not one to play the political games in the work arena! I am direct and at times, not so nice. I have a low tolerance for stupidity and lack of work ethics. Is that my generation, or my training? Do they not teach that in school any more? Or have I just become burned out by the whole nursing thing.

The place I work is a new hospital (2 yrs) and they still have yet to figure it out. You would think that a huge conglomerate that owns hundreds of hospitals would have it down pat by now, but no, not at this place. I feel unsafe there. And unappreciated, and tired of the BS that seems to go on and on.

Frustration, it is overwhelming me this morning and just needed an outlet.

There has to be more out there, more to this profession, more options...