i have brought the wonderful "i'm so evil" game to medical mingle. it's a cute and fun game, i always laugh at what some people come up with. this one guy and i went on a rant about air supply music, and 12 pages later, i had to conciede.....
it's a fun game, just think of what annoys you or the little things that somebody just had to think of to make you crazy....
i'm so evil... i park in spaces sideways and sit back and watch people get angry....
all in all, a dreary day.. .. as i watched my sunrise slip away my fading personality of which i came.. .. into exsistance in this adult plane has since been altered.. .. why i don't know it's gotten harder.. .. for me to show why i am .. .. the way i am i really do not know
the tree line green.. .. the asphalt gray i really don't.. ..know what to say my head a whirlwind.. .. of thoughts and fears the ones i've grown acustomed to.. .. through all these years ones that i can not shake.. .. or those whose claws can not break there's more at stake.. .. than my sanity, which i often fake
images of clarity.. .. sounds of a blur my mind lacks both..
was at work friday night and came across this little group. all i can say is that i now want to have an iPhone.
and while we're on the subject of music, i'd like to say a little something about internet radio. there's internet radio stations out there that play their music. you either have no choice in the matter, or you have to pay premiums for better options.
i've been listening to www.pandora.com for some time now. this is the most detailed and enjoyable site i have ever seen. AND IT'S FREE!!! there's a subscription version which doesn't have the banner ad's, but as far as listening, there are no comercials. check out the site's FAQ's to see how determined they are to provide quality music for whatever you're listening prefrences are.
ever have one of those feelings that something just isn't right? something is about to happen? something has happened that you don't know about just yet?
i keep getting this feeling....... "iiiiiiii, i'm hooked on a feeeelinggg......" sorry, torretts just gets the best of me sometimes.
i don't know, maybe it's just paranoia...... "paranoia paranoia everybody....." ok brain, stop, i'm trying to have a thought here....
maybe that's the reason i started bloging on this site, ya know? to see if somebody would look at this and say "hey, you're really crazy man, mayhe you should get some help?" and i'd say something along the lines of "i don't need to pay some schmuck to scribble doodles on a pad of paper, tell me it's all ok, and medicate me". granted, the drugs might be fun.....
i don't know. i've just got so many things going through my head right now: finances, family, carreer, my weight (recently went to the doctor for a physical and my cholesterol was like over 800, and now i'm on meds :( ).
i'm not saying that i'm suisidal or anything. i'm not a cutter. i don't even think that i have a reason to be depressed, if that's what my problem is to begin with. i've finally decided not to delete anything from my blog other than spelling mistakes. believe me, if i kept all my typos in here, i wouldn't even be able to understand it. it's just that this is supposed to be like my diary or journal or something, right? so i should be putting down what is going through my head? my thoughts? feelings? concerns? fears?
maybe it's all just a front for who i really am. a long time ago i had this theroy where everybody was really the same person, just reincarnated into a different person during that same time. what if there really is no past or future, just the present, and we really are the same person living this time over and over? talk about your mulitple personality disorder. if i'm trying to deal with who i am, am i trying to deal with the rest of the world at the same time? if i'm re-living this time over and over again as different people, am i alone? could people who comment on this blog really be me in another life, and if so, is how they feel about me the way that i feel about myself?
this is why i sometimes question my sanity. with all the people i know, friends, family, etc, is this why i feel alone? freud could have a field day with my head. anybody could have a field day with my head. maybe that's why i relate to papa smurf. the one man in charge of the entire colony, but there's so many other people taking care of the colony, am i really needed in the colony? would the colony exsist without me?
yeah, this kinda bothers me a bit. haven't had the time to rescearch it, but it gives ya something to think about...
*headers deleted for confidentiality*
It is a matter of history that when Supreme Commander of the Allied Forces, General Dwight Eisenhower, found the victims of the Nazi death camps he ordered all possible photographs to be taken, and for the German people from surrounding villages to be ushered through the camps and even made to bury the dead.
He did this because he said in words to this effect: "Get it all on record now - get the films, get the witnesses - because somewhere down the track of history some bastard will get up and say that this never happened."
______________________ ~~ In Memorial ~~
This week, the UK removed The Holocaust from its school curriculum because it "offended" the Muslim population, which claims it never occurred. This is a frightening portent of the fear that is gripping the world and how easily each country is giving into it.
It is now more than 60 years after the Second World War in Europe ended. This e-mail is being sent as a memorial chain, in memory of the six million Jews, 20 million Russians, 10 million Christians and 1,900 Catholic priests who were murdered, massacred, raped, burned, starved and humiliated while the German and Russian peoples were looking the other way!
Now, more than ever with Iran, among others, claiming the Holocaust to be "a myth," it is imperative to make sure the world never forgets. How many years will it be before the attack on the World Trade Center "never happened" because it offends some Muslim in the U.S.?
They are already claiming it was a plot of our government.
"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing." - Edmund Burke
