Today on Greg Laurie on the radio he said " Christianity is God's attempt to reach man "I really like that! Christianity today is a definition of ones values.....oddly enough I hear celebrities say that even a playboy girl.......what's up with that??? They are truly blessed, over and over it is said about jobs money husbands boyfriends life experiences.....I don't think that was what God meant of blessings and Christianity......many wear the title but only scratch the surface of God's Christianity and blessings. How sad that many are satisfied with the looks ....I have found many blessings from God are always mixed with hardships.....its pushing thru it and noticing God's hand in it along the way...its never smooth.....never fun or happy.........well maybe that's not right for some but for me.....when I look back it is always WHEW!! Glad I made it thru that! Wow here we go again........I finished TCC University last Sunday. Pastor David did a really good job with the seminar " How to use your education to change the world" I know I know it seems like "emergent church" teachings, but is far from it.....Pastor David McAllister taught..."a relationship with God is a process, taking a step by step process that takes a person from a position of uncommitted to Christ to being right with God and well-prepared and equipped to live a successful Christian life"....I am really learning and I am so thankful of that. I have said over and over Pastor has introduced me to God and Jesus of the bible. Sometimes TV evangelists Catholicism and my human views really skewed who God and Jesus were. ......who knew, the bible is a Christians library!...when I look at the maps of Jerusalem I get a yearning to go, to see....it would be a thrill to see what Jesus saw....maybe one of these days I will get to see Israel.............Jaylee has been experimenting with "curlers"  ...apparently she has to have curly hair "like you mom" .....she doesn't know yet FRIZZY!! Anyways those slippery little things GGRRRR it takes me 3-4 attempts to wrap um!! ..she sleeps with her arms as a pillow her face and nose down.....I remember my mother in law would do that for weeks when she got her hair done at the beauty parlor..........Jelly is growing up  sitting on the bed watching TV with me.........we watch "Jon and Kate plus eight" "what not to wear" "house hunting" and "the duggar family".......Thanksgiving went ok ....cherry cheesecake, pumpkin pie, dips, jello, potatoes, gravy, rolls and of course turkey........it was a little lonely but I did call family to talk....Jaron has informed me he wants PS3 4-500 dollars.........OUT OF HIS MIND!!!!!! Apparently I am old! Too think 150.00 is a lot of money.......I have not blogged for awhile.....getting thru anger depression...maybe it is anger with God because situations don't seem to change or get better. Yesterday I turned the radio off the whole day....listening to sermons exhort push encourage.....much of what Pastors say [ on the radio] I am not physically capable of doing......always I am hearing you need too, you should do, have to do, be apart of, give financially physically...it is overwhelming......anger issues with hubby and now kids.......and of course I have to be apart of it......it is a vicious circle that goes round and round......so I turned off the radio and opened the bible......the quiet and reading the bible bring me back to resting in Jesus. ...yesterday Jaylee starts the day whining and yelling no with everything!! Brush her hair teeth ,dressing, breakfast....gave her yogurt in the squeeze package....4-5^th time she did it again in her clothes wall and floor table her glasses jacket.....last time it was on the glass door .....she was making pictures.......the time before that, the couch, carpet, walls.........time before that my wheelchair, floor, carpet.....so I fixed her wagon, I froze them =]......she likes ice cream for breakfast, and I like it no mess =].....course when it happened again I lost my temper....she was laughing, =[ I wasn't! I put her out of the house to go to school with yogurt in her hair clothes and glasses, she went to school and nobody said nothing!!.....Jaron wore his T-shirt to school that says " taking truth to Tucson john 14:6"......I was surprised because anything that sets him apart he shuns....kids at school had something to say about our church and used cuss words......so Jaron used cuss words too [ my church is better then your church stuff]......Eddie agreed with him......I spoke that if they are no different in behavior from them...it serves nobody....it casts the church down but more importantly it casts Jesus down, no one is listening between these heated exchanges.....the focus is to bring them to Jesus not drive them away.....Pastor say we need to build the wall to build the church and not tear it down.....why would they want to come if his behavior is no different.....well I have to use my words carefully not by lecturing... a little each day to Jaron, so he will hear what Jesus says....."a relationship with God is a step by step process" so says our Pastor, Jaron has begun his walk!!! And so the walk with Jesus continues, I may not understand or see the whole picture....its ok though....Jesus is by my side pushing that wheelchair [ squeeek, squeeek!!!!!!] lighting my way....I am not alone =].

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