This time, nothing will stop me.  My free will to eat whatever and whenever I want has to end. I signed up for "physician's weight loss center".  It' is costing me $748 for 16 weeks. Like a semester at school---   Honest, I am doing this for me. I have to lose between 30-40lbs of fat.

Yes, I am a fat lady as you can see from my pics.  I am an overwheight person, I have to admit it.

and I am doing this now for myself, to feel better on the inside as well as on the outside. I have to do this.  I started online RN-BSN program on monday. And the semester ends in december.

so basically, I signed up for 3 classes, 2 writing classes & my 3rd and most challenging weight loss.

God willing everything will go well in all aspects. but the weight loss is something that I need. I hate when people tell me that I am fat, I mean, most people own a mirror, I have one too, I can see that I have to lose weight-----  but it's sickening to my stomach when people mention that to me every time they see me. 

I don't understand why people can't keep comments to themselves.  I don't tell the B*** that called me fat that she has an extremely oily face and to go to the dermatologist to get that fixed.  or the other B*** that tells me that I've gotten fatter since she last saw me when I was only 11 years old!!!!

the average american woman is a size 12--- that's what I am, average--- but I guess they want to see me as an anorexic. and that is something I am not or will not be.

so I picked that weight loss program, because I think that is what will help me lose weight, bring my fat percent down, and my cholesterol down, and hopefully people in the future will be with their mouths shut with their stupid comments when they see me.

It's been a while since I have written on this site.

I have now 8 months experience as an RN, and I can say that it has been an interesting road.  I have learned a whole lot, made mistakes.  I have been floated to other units now, so I have that to experience, such as being in the NICU, cardiac floor, renal floor, neuro floor----- and I am happy that I have done that to see other types of patients besides my surgery patients.

I do enjoy what I do, and I do enjoy that I do not have to get up every morning for a 9-5 job. I do not have a traditional job, but it does pay the bills & I get to spend time with my family and doing things that I consider fun.

I decided to go back to school to get my BSN degree- it's gonna take me a year and a half because I am going part time.  Next week I start taking 2 classes, so God willing that will go great for me.